Starving myself is a lot easier than jogging. “Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

Imma do a shot the go out for a jog #karalogic

It’s kind of disgusting when people are asking me if I’ve gotten rid of JP yet and I’ve only been seeing him for 2 weeks. He is one of the best looking guys I’ve seen in a while, he dresses great, we have a shit ton of shit in common, our birthdays are a few days apart, our cars could be twins, we both like Alien Ant Farm and Primus, he’s well endowed (sorry if you’re reading this mom, but it’s true) and guess what? I loathe his guts. He is one of the biggest jerks I’ve ever met. I’m not talking like he’s an arrogant player type. That’s what D was and I could handle that. Jp is an insecure, negative, ranting asshole. He literally called me a bitch so many times that I lost count. It’s like, he could just say whatever he wanted to me and say just kidding, thinking that would take it all back. And yeah, he took me to the movies a few times and bought me stuff that I wanted from Starbux but it’s like, holy god dude you’re so cranky all the time. In the 2 weeks that I’ve known him he made me completely miserable. Even how he would yell at his cats for whatever reason would piss me off. I was never insecure with D. And we called each other all the names in the book. It’s like, holy shit, I don’t even know what to say about JP. It was all there, but I just can’t go down with someone who just wants to lay around all day and be in love with himself. And it would be one thing if he actually wanted to have sex all the time. I’d put up with his shit if I could have that (because it would be worth it for a little while at least) but there wasn’t even that to hold on to. There was no period of “oh he’s so great” it was just like, wow, he’s kind of a jerk. In a real way. Like, mean. I can handle Dean being arrogant and telling me he’s a catch and this and that but I can’t handle not wanting to be kissed or snuggled with. The fucking games are just too much. I told him to delete my number the other day and instead of taking that as a sign that maybe he should be nicer, he used that as an excuse to be just that much more nasty. JP is the most negative person I’ve ever met. It’s such a shame too because it was all there. It could have been something, and the sad part is that I don’t think he’ll ever realize it. UGH…. Ok, he’s done. On to the next.

So what I learned from this whole ordeal with D and Jp is that the only person I have to rely on is myself, and I really need to do what I said I was going to, which is paint like a mother effer, download a shit ton of weird movies and music, hang out with people I normally wouldn’t, and do things for myself rather than for the stories. I’ve let other people control my life for basically, my entire life, and I just need to figure out what kind of people I want to surround myself with, and be the person I am when I’m alone, and be ok with that when I’m not alone.

“I’m playing my jokes upon you while there’s nothing better to do”

Awesome restaurant in Tunkhannock called Twigs, I had a crab cake sandwich, so effing good!

The dress I bought for my cousin’s wedding in August.

Two irons, one stolen from each of the faggy men in my life.

Ben’s first encounter with Mitchell E. Pedro.

Gauge and I saw Star Trek last night in IMAX, I still do not know why they changed the cool sleek black glasses to these lemons.

My background… So perfect.